Open Your Eyes For The First Time

Happy Halloween and birthday!

2007-10-31T05:16:26Z

Happy Samhain!!!! and It's also Frank Iero's Birthday!!! Happy Birthday to you Frankie!

I lit a candle for him and wished him well. I know I should ask if I can do crap like that but it's not like I can exactly go up to him and say "Hey! Can I light a candle for you and wish for the best in your years to come?!" .....^_^

Night!

chibijadeindigo @ 2007-07-15T00:59:00

2007-07-15T05:59:27Z

The BEST 'What do the Harry Potter Characters think of you' (and love story! WOW) Quiz! Seriously. You will be amazed by its AWE

Name: Well, obviously, I don't know this..House: SlytherinYear: Year older than DracoPersonality/Whatnot: To sum it up in one of those overused stupid phrases: You're too cool for school. You don't care what anyone thinks and you have a slight chip on your shoulder. But, you're smart and you know how to get what you want.Reputation: Apathetic Smartalec Draco: Is your boyfriend! Yay! He thinks you two are perfect because you guys can be complete bitches to each other, and then the next moment, you're all snuggly and he likes that you keep him on his toes.Pansy: Is a friend. She doesn't really like how you're dating Draco but she'll deal. Fred Weasley: Thinks you're kinda cool. You have that attitude that defiantly attracts him, but he also stays away from you because of Draco.George Weasley: Is unconcerned with you although he does think it's really funny when you talk back to the teachers.Harry: Used to dislike you but then after you snapped at Umbridge, you went way up in his book.Ron: Is slightly scared by you and your 'gothic' appearance. Hermione: Is surprised by how smart you are, but she would never tell you that.Ginny: Does not like you AT ALL. My god, woman, what did you do???Neville: Is scared. End of story.Cho: Is jealous because you can pull off the whole punk look and she can't. Cedric: Actually thinks you're hot and totally cool. He wishes he knew you better.Tonks: Doesn't know you.Lupin: Doesn't know you.Sirius: Like your attitude...at least, he likes it from what he's heard from the Trio.Dumbledore: Is worried that you'll get pulled over to the Dark Arts...he really hopes you don't because you don't put up with shit and he could really use you.McGonagall: Doesn't really like you because of your attitude, but she does admit that you're not as cruel as the other Slytherins...You just don't care.~How You and Draco Met~Pansy introduced you two (and she is sorely regretting it now) and Draco at once loved your kiss-my-ass attitude and he immediately asked you out.~HOW He Asked You Out~Before you two actually started dating, you guys would get into fights; mainly because he was trying to piss you off to see how much you would take. So during one of these long and not to mention, LOUD fighting sessions, you screamed at him to go fuck Pansy (because you knew she liked him), and he responded, quite shocked and serious, 'I'd rather do you.' And that's pretty much it..hehe~And After~Much to Dumbledore's dismay, you decided that Voldemort had the right idea and when Draco told you how he was going to have to kill Dumbledore, you did everything in your power to try to help him. However, as in the book, both of you failed and Snape was forced to do it. After escaping that grand battle, you two lovebirds assisted Voldemort in his plans before you were murdered by an auror. :(
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chibijadeindigo @ 2007-06-18T01:03:00

2007-06-17T21:11:10Z

In Marburg. Crying over sooo many things. These days are hard. But so much worse for Frau. The kids are freaking acting like 2 year olds. I want to kill them. We just walked up a hill for god knows how long and it was painful. I had a splinter in my heal. I couldnt breath and I am fat people!!!! Alright we stay here for one more day and then we go to Kolmar. I think. God I just want to get to France and see the Louve and the Catacoms...I cant spell!!! Anyway!! I cant say much sadly but I am alive. Much love to all!!! Bye!!

chibijadeindigo @ 2007-06-14T08:36:00

2007-06-14T06:37:19Z

Hello all I'm in Berlin and not much time. I only bought 15 min on the internet. But this is to tell you we leave Berlin for another city today and I'm still alright. Much love to you all!!! Bye!!!

3 in the morning

2007-06-11T01:44:26Z

Yup!!! That's right folks!!! It is 3 in the morning and I am up. I didn't nap like I normally do here and so because of this I went to bed at like 6. We leave for Berlin in like 5 hours. So I stole the computer to kill some time. Ugh. Tia wasn't able to get you a huge bottle but I found a good small one. Christina I'm still looking for a snow globe. And if not....I'll figure something out. Really I will! Reaven I got some little things of Haribo and something called Marzapan...whatever.... K urmm Tia might not see this so Duo tell her what's up and about the bottle. MUCH LOVE BYE!!!

Last Day.....

2007-06-10T11:49:32Z

Well I have this last day to relax and things before we start to travel tomorrow. I've packed up a few of my things. (did ya notice that I found the damn apostrophe or whatever??) So hehe!! Ugh. It will be kinda sad leaving the family however I am kinda glade. I'm going to miss the daily showers and all the chances to wash my cloths. But it just means that it's only 2 weeksish until I get to go home. We are going to Hannover one last time before I go. So I finally get to see this one statue thing I wanted to see. Alright Much love to you all!!!! BYE!!

Jenn, Winni and Kari

2007-06-09T20:48:52Z

Ok!!!! So it is Saturday night and the party is almost over. Jenn came. Shes one of Fraus friends (Kari) and I made her happy by just seeing her. That was good. Yay. There are many people here and it is a very nice night. Its been so hot all the days but the night have been heaven. Alright well I have to see if I can ask Susanne if I can get my cloths washed tomorrow. Hope I can. MUCH LOVE TO YOU ALL!!!!!

Two more day then we travel

2007-06-09T16:16:39Z

Ive gotten to meet both of the daughters. They look like sister but not twins. They are very nice and I love this place sooo much. Ill have to make sure I keep in contact with them. And make my German better for them. Ugh. Well its Saturday here. And its also Winnis birthday so we are all working around the make a buffet for like 30 people. No kidding. I will have to take pictures...they want me to. I will most likely freak with all the people here too. Ugh. Monday we leave and start our travel around. That is going to be for something like two weeks. Its going to feel so much longer. Dear god. Urm...I have a very uncomfortable moment not too long ago. It was a kind of question about my weight. Yes I know Im fat damn it. Ugh. It was just a person who is a health instructor kind of person worried about a person that they really like who is fat, wanting them to live a long and happy, healthy life. My host ma and me. Ok well I will have to explain later. Ok well I have to go and see what else I have to do so I can help. Much love to all!!!!!

DEATH IN HANNOER!!!! Ok not really....just me pissed....

2007-06-04T17:54:37Z

ok!!!!!! So this is how it starts. I get to school and then go to Winnis classes after second period. By the way home sick the whole time! And after that we get back to the meeting place and get ready to go on our way to tour Hannover! Frau said to follow the Germans. Ok we did. No Frau coming behind us....where the hell are we going? Kids smoking....I move closer to the back...more kids smoking...closer to the back....where the hell are we going?! Pissed off to no end and with no Frau in sight we (James, becca, Marly and me.) fall back just a bit....then they cross the road with CARS COMING!!!!! and not a the cross walk. The four of us go to the cross walk and do it RIGHT!!! so we dont go to jail or DIE!!! Ugh....ok so we are now really behind, but I can still see the bigger group walking. Again with the where the hell are we going? This doesnt look like a way to a train station...ugh. We eventually get to the station, and Frau is there...I walk right us to her and give her the most hated, sarcastic, happy smile I have ever pulled off. And the whole time I looked, becca goes....What the hell were you thinking Frau???!!!....I told her I would tell her later....SHE LEFT US!!!! So we got on the train....AFTER WALKING FOR GOD KNOWS HOW LONG!!!!! And she asked me if I really hated her right now. I told her I hated everything....TRUE!!! Ok so we get to Hannover and she sends us all off to get food....kinda ok except the damnedist annoying kid I have ever known was with us!!! He thinks hes all high and mighty because he was born here but moved to the states....FUCK YOU KID!!!!! I DONT CARE!!! GET OVER IT!!! Yes I am being a right bitch today. But I was told it was ok cause Im Amanda.....ugh. Ok I got to eat asian food....Then we went back and did the tour....good pics....will try to load onto the travel site later.... many avoiding smoke, knees hurting, sites gone unseen and seen, and MILES!!!! later.....we have to go home. I am handed a ticket after all the people in out group gather again and am told that I am in charge of 5 people, my self included. Pick 5 people and be in charge of them....BULL SHIT!!!! So eventually...with 2 people and me we go to the train....guess what....NO FRAU!!!! SHES GETTING A DAMN INTERVIEW!!!! Freaking newspapers...we get to the train station again and frau said that they talked with the host families, not all it would seem cause some of us had to walk all the way back!!!!! Damn it and each time we got a change to sit....i couldnt cause someone else was sitting and it was the ground...knowing I wouldnt be able to get up again I didnt sit. THE GIRL WITH THE FUCKED UP KNEE AND FAT ASS DIDNT SIT!!!! Dear god I love my family to death and its beautiful here it really is but I want to go HOME!!!!!

Ok so this is what happened....

2007-06-03T20:40:06Z

Winni tells me that there are kids in the soccer area next to the school and behind my house.(they were loud, and not sapposed to be there because of the people that live there want peace.) They are the Texas kids he thinks. So I go out and see and yes its them. Cool. I hang out with them for a few minutes and my friend Conny is bored and isnt playing soccer so I take her home for some cake and to talk. SO!!! After that we go back and all of us hang around the lake for an hour or so. THEN!! They all want to go get food, so I go with them why not. Ok I say I have to go to get money and tell my family where Im going. So wait for me at the soccer place, its the only place I know where it is. Ok so I go, get my money, and my key. Get back to the soccer place and they are standing around with two police. First thought...Shit...what the hell did they do?! Conny was taking pictures....Second thought...they are there to talk? Kaite comes up to me and gives me a look. And one (I sware looked like a Nazi!!!!) asked me if he could ask me a question. Last thought.....FUCK WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO I HATE YOU GUYS!!!!!

It was reported that they were being loud and playing where they shouldnt have. One of the German students sweet talked our way out of it....ugh...

He asked me where I was coming from and what I had to do. I told him to get my bag. He said, just your bag? I said no, my money.

Then it was better. But they didnt tell him they were playing soccer. He knew Im sure.

OMG being 20 makes you fell waaaaaay two damn responsible for teenagers. I was a hairs width away from killing them!

Ok I have to go to school in the morning....good night from Germany!!!

Mer....

2007-06-03T14:00:41Z

I think this is the 4th day in Germany and I am sitting outside watching over Monkey the turtle!
I got to go to pick strawberries and I have pic of that too. We saw the lake, or at least the biggest one in this region. Holy Crap the sun is freaking bright!! Ok Im going to give links to pics a journal thing for travel.

Urm this is a link from Frau that has reports.....

http://realtravel.com/frankfurt-trips-i4596841.html

So yeah!
and mine is here:

http://realtravel.com/member-m4662611-jadeindigo73.html

Cars..

2007-05-31T19:59:09Z

I almost got hit by a car today....OK!!!!

Ill try to add pics from the trip later.

First day in Germany

2007-05-31T10:22:55Z

Wow. Ok logging in was fun. I had to read alot of german. Alright people Im here and with out the use of and apostraphy.....or whatever Im going to tell ya whats up. To make it kinda short cause I have to eat....I got on the plan to go to New Jersey. Three hours. Then went on the plan from NJ to Frankfort. SEVEN HOURS!!!! Dear got that was long! I slept a little and all so its ok. Then we took many trains...(they too forever) and a subway to get to Garbsen. Just near Hannover. Its beautiful people really it is. But its sooo hard when you hardly know the language. However. My family is very nice and I got my own room. I may not be able to post alot but I will try.

I got to go to school today also. That was fun.... OH AND VERY CUTE GUYS!!!! Most of the time...kinda. Ok Im getting off so I dont monopolize the computer. Its kinda the only one in the house. Alright love you all!

Take care!!!!

20 years now...Graduation...and Germany....

2007-05-26T18:38:58Z

I've decided that I'm going to try and post my journey from Germany to here. So I guess that I will start it up again.

I'm 20 years old now. I still feel older.

Graduation is tomorrow.

Scared.

We then leave two days right after graduation......

really scared.....

Help....

chibijadeindigo @ 2006-08-13T19:12:00

2006-08-14T00:12:34Z

It seems I only ever come to this thing to change the icon.....sad.

BIRTHDAY!!!!

2006-04-22T02:14:35Z

I'M 19 YEARS OLD TODAY PEOPLE!!!!!!! LOVE ME!!!!

State

2006-02-28T06:31:38Z

It's extreamly late for this and I'll have the ranks later...but!!!! I SURVIVED STATE!!! I took a long ass 5 hour drive on a bus cramped as all hell!!!!! To Austin! Fusking state. Anyway we got to eat a wonderful stake diner at like 10ish and then we got to the hotel and finally I settled down at like 12. I roomed with Frau and she didn't get any sleep because of boys....stupid high school kids. Anyway play was at 8 the next day and we didn't place 5th or above...but we did so well on a personal level!! From all the crap that we did from the practices....we rocked. I think we got 6th out of 7. Dance did pretty well I think and then we had chior. I really think that we did soooooo bad. We mixed the lyrics sooooo freaking bad!!! Oh man. But aparently there were two other people who did wrose then us...dear lord they must of just died on the sport to be worse then us.....But urm yea so another 5 hour ride home and on the way the white kids and one hispanic decided that they were going to free flow. LOL the only one I can remember then saying was: All the german kids sittin on the bus, tryin to get the Frau to come and rap with us. She might be off beat but thats ok, becasue Frau can't rap anyway!" and then I told them that I had a one time flow. Mind you I really had to pee..." Sitting on the bus with no where to go, listenin to these kids trying to flow. This really is some sight to see, but guess what I still gota pee." Then we stopped and I got to pee. We got on the bus and I said " I guess I have to change my flow, I don't have to pee no more."

Anyway. I'm tired and waiting for something to hurry and dl. Alright love you all bye!!!

Memories

2006-02-19T08:10:12Z

I was listening to a few things that were being said in the German room when I was getting ready to leave for the day. One of the students was talking to Frau about their father molesting them when they where younger. It brought back some memories I didn't even know I had. Here's the gist of it for those that care:

I have a hard time remembering many things. I don't remember when I was 15 all that well. And there are some very random things about my life that I do remember. I remember getting flattened by a christmas tree when I was younger. I remember braking my nose by flipping on the back of some stairs. That on...I think the morning of my 13th birthday, I was greeted by my second stepfather and got to have tea with Emma and ate a banana for breakfast. Never try them one after the other. It's not good. I can remember some of my elementry school teachers. But I can only get bits and peaces from my past. I can't recall a full memory.

The bad. When I was much younger, the apartment that I lived next to was getting fixed up. The mexican workers that were there would greet me from time to time when I would walk outside. One day the only guy there told me to come into the house to see what they were doing. Mind you, I was MAYBE 5. I walked in and he was very kind to me. He sat me in his lap and pointed out things in the room. What they did and how they worked. I don't really remember how but he ended up touching me in a way that I don't want to talk about. You can guess. Funny, because I write about worse stuff then what he did to me. But I guess when it's about you....He gave me money to not say anything I think. I don't know but he did give me money. Talk about sick humor. My thoughts right now are bordering on "Wow...I guess I was selling myself for money at 5 then. Damn, prostitute at a young age." Oh man, some times I really wonder about myself.

Second bad. That I can remember anyway. I was over at a friends house, friend shall remain unnamed. I was lying on a bed with her older brother watching her and her cousin play a game...I felt a hand go under my shirt...I didn't say anything at the time, the kids where there. I think I was 12. Least to say on my own part I held his hand in a grip that would make Ban proud the whole time and gave him a chewing out later on. But he did it again when I was sleeping late at their house a few mouths later.

I've gone through two stepfathers and used to not even remember my real fathers name. One step father I hated because he was mean and just...I don't remember but I KNOW I hated him. My first brother doesn't talk to his father because his dad is a grubby bastard. He thinks that Sean will go after his money if he gets to know him. My second brother sees his father often. He lives in Ohio but he goes there for some holidays. His dad is rich and gives him just about everything. Patrick has a half brother and half sister. I have never met my dad and I'm extremely jealous of Patrick for that. I'm so selfish.

But I should be grateful. I never went through the pains of a divorce or my parents fighting. So I'll keep that in mind.

Random ass note mostly to myself: When the mexican guy was touching me I could see it from another persons prospective. As if I was watching it happen. This maybe why I was able to forget about it. Makes me wonder how much my mental level was when I was younger.

I still haven't told my mother any of this stuff. And I'll ask everyone now to please not say anything to her. I needed to get this out and this was the only place that I could put it without it being in my house. And if she does find out and talks to me about it, I will know who it was. There are few people that look at these things for me. I will have a hard time forgiving you for this.

Alright I'm going to stop now. My chest hurts.

Internet

2006-02-11T01:48:39Z

I HAVE INTERNET ON ROY!!!!! I CAN DO MORE STUFF NOW!!!! YAY!!!

Winterfest

2006-02-05T18:20:53Z

Ok Ladies and Gents! Guess what!!! I survived Winterfest!!!! This was my first year going and sure as hell to be my last! The WHOLE day was chaos! Really, it's like someone just let Puck out of his mirror and let him run lose! The sceduling was messed up beyond repair. We started the day off with dance and then we were going to go to play. Well we where told that dance ended at 9:30 and play was at 9:45. Well at around 9:40, we were told that Pass auf was to go at 10:00. So Captin Herr and I went and told the judges for play that Turner was going to be late and they said, "well play was at 9:30" Eh...eheh...eh....ugh. Sooo they said that right after Pass auf we were to come there and just wait until they could fit us in. Right so we went back Pass auf lasted for 4 rounds and our Leopard, had to leave at 12. Right so around 11 ish...I went to go see if we could even still do Chior. And at this point I'm panicing from the scedualing and I've been running around getting stuff together all day...I'm breathing really hard now. So we go and walk across the compound and meet up with Barinecea....I don't know how to spell her name...and we ask if chior is still going. They said they were wait for one school and it was us. SO! We gather people...and I'm dressed in my play outfit, I was a fox, so yeah, I almost lost my tail. I went running around to look for it and eveyone else meet me and Barinesea back at the chior building. We got in there only to find out that we had no cd player. SO! I ran back to the OTHER building and got our stero....I'm hyperventalating at this point and got up on stage, stated to sing, and it hits me. I'm waring a bodice. This thing is crushing my lungs in. I can't breath. No air. Oh shit....hey look at the dots. Athsma attack. We stop singing, they sat me down, Raily RAN to get my bag for my inhailer and Whitney ran to get Queen. I used my inhairler, got water from Queen, she helped to get my grounded so I wasn't freaking out so much. I asked if we could do the last song becasue I knew that one better. We did and then left. So right after that, around like...12:30 our Leopard left and we were told that we had to do play now. Out of 17 people....only 5 or so people knew their lines. I was one of them only becasue I stayed up the night before until 2 in the morning. So that was a desaster!!! In the end we got 3rd in chior some how, one of the schools tryed to cheat. They used their lines. And we got 2nd in play only because there were only 2 plays. So we got last really. And we have to go to state for each of them!!! UGH!!! The most I don't want to go to state for is Chior. So yeah. Alright I'm getting going now. LOVE YOU ALL!!! *huggles*

Emma's Birthday...a little late...again

2006-01-22T18:59:43Z

So yeah it was Emma's birthday the 20th. Urm...stuff happened and my brothers took her to Red Lobster yesterday. That was fun. Rei is starting to spend the night every few nights. It's much closer to school then her dad's place. So thats fun too.

Tomodachi

2006-01-07T04:32:18Z

私は実際に私が私に私がに使用した友人がないというに事実を乗り越えることができることを望む。私はまた私が唯一に友人でないことを覚える必要がある。私は悲しい人... である

Hehe!! That was cool!! Ok So slightly new email jadeindigo7387@yahoo.co.jp
I can get my email from the Japanese Yahoo acount! It's fun. Alight Loves!!!
But I still use my Hotmail!!!

And Ashley I'm really sorry and hope everything goes ok for you!

HOLY CRAP POMI REALLY IS A GIRL!!!

2005-12-30T14:50:26Z

Ok...So the voice actor Rumi Pomi or something like that...anyway the voice actor for Edward Elric.... is a girl. I knew this but still questioned for a looooong time because of the fact that she always does guys and sounds very much like a young boy! So I was looking her up and she really is a beautiful girl. And that voice comming from that girl was just weird.... So anyway. I saw some of the voices she did....the search went a little like this..." Boy....boy, boy, boy, boy....HOLY SHIT TEMARI!!?!?!?! OMG A GIRL! Pomi does a girl!!" *runs to get her Naruto cd's out again and finds the ep where Tenten and Temari fight. "HOLY STICK!!! She really is a girl" And so the gender confusion is over. Pomi Rumi is a girl. While a very dikeish girl....a girl non the less. ^_^

Jewagan

2005-12-27T06:11:49Z

Ok, so I guess some people really can't believe that I am a Jewish Pagan.... Yes ladies and Gents!! I am a Jewish Pagan...while not a very good one... Ashley calls me a Jewagan....yay! I celebrate Yulenuka...or however she spells it. I am a VERY reformed jew. I eat pork! I have been dubbed by one of Ashies friends... the Jew girl. And she has told whataburger that she wants a bacan cheese burger...for a jew... she thought it was the most funniest thing ever. She wants to get me a draiddle with a pig one it. I think this is all so very funny.... for a long moment then I think. But still it's funny. Alright love you all take care bye!!

troubles

2005-12-21T19:56:36Z

It seems to me that all the people I know are having some sort of trouble with one thing or another. In this I'm sorry and really hope that eveything turns out ok. I know it's nothing and that it really doesn't matter if I say I'm sorry or that I hope it gets better...but I just want some people to know that I do think of them. *huggles you all*